Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Bad things happen all the time

This week, an office friend passed along some very personal, very bad news of another person in our office.  The kind of news that had me crying on my drive home from work for this woman who I barely know.  After my friend told me this news she made a statement similar to “I’m so tired of hearing bad news. It seems like bad things are happening to everyone”.

I think we all hear bad news fairly often from people. I think bad news is big and scary and good news is smaller and simpler, and less talked about. Sure some good news is big, like having a baby or getting married.  At a certain age there’s less of that going on in your circle of friends so you hear more bad news.

Maybe people should talk more about the small things that make them happy.

My husband bought me flowers for no reason.
I saw a beautiful sunset on my drive home from work.

My daughter gave me the sweetest hug yesterday.

If we focus on all the good things in our life you realize that they add up to one great happy life. And that helps overcome the bad news you hear or experience. So much of life is your attitude. I choose a happy positive attitude!

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Weekend of nothing much

Didn't do much this weekend but hung around. That's okay since we're saving money for our vacation and paying off medical bills. Cassidy also has been lazy! Sleeping late and taking long naps. I wish she'd tell me when she's planning these 3 hour naps because I would've planned to get something big done around the house.
I was able to take a bunch of cute pictures of her today. She was in a really good mood after a breakfast of pancakes & biscuits at Cracker Barrel. She's been running around the house a lot today. Her run is pretty cute.

hugging my knee

Tuesday, February 21, 2012


Cassidy doesn't know how to kiss.  If you ask her for a kiss she moves her cheek towards you. So you can kiss her :-)  Over the weekend I cut my finger and I asked her to kiss it and make it better like mommy does for her booboo's.  She put her cheek on my finger! haha.

We had a nice long weekend. We went to this indoor petting zoo which was... kind of stinky. Cassidy didn't want to ride anything though she enjoyed feeding the goats.

Other good news from the weekend was that I got my period! Yippee! the doctor squeezed me in on Friday and I got the IUD. I'm SO happy I won't have to have surgery. Even if it was minor.

Also we've redecorated our living room. Painted and new furniture. I haven't gotten many pictures back up on the wall yet.  Before photo:

The sectional is really nice though its higher so Cassidy cannot get on by herself. We have so much more seating now. The four of us really didn't fit on the old couch!

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Saturday, February 11, 2012

I want my normal life back!

I've tried to just get my life back to normal since breast cancer. For the most part it is. But there is this one lingering thing that is a pretty frequent reminder of all that has happened.

If you don't want to hear about my sex life stop reading now!

We still have no birth control!  Back in November I had to have my birth control removed because of the hormones. My options are very limited because I can't use anything with hormones. At that point Bill made an appointment for a consultation about a vasectomy. We thought the 4 weeks we had to wait for that appointment was the end of the world. Little did we know.

His appointment was a few days before my implant exchange surgery. He was told my "this bitch of a doctor" that they wouldn't even consider a vasectomy because of the heart medicine he is on (Plavix & aspirin). We were very upset. I call my doctor the same day to talk about my limited options. I get an appointment for 6 weeks away (end of January).

That appointment was two weeks ago. My options are limited to two. Have my tubes tied or the Paraguard IUD. Doctor recommended having my tubes tied. After all, Bill and I never planned to have other kids. I didn't want to have surgery, not matter how minor. So I say I want to try the IUD. Apparently it has to be put in when you have your period.  And this is where fate steps in to crap all over me.  I haven't gotten my period.  Which I knew was a possible side effect of the tamoxifen but I just figured it wouldn't happen this fast.  I'm so bummed out.  This impacts our life every week. Condoms are awful!  I just want to move on and to do that I need reliable birth control!!  Argh stupid cancer!

To wrap this up on a happier note I'll throw in some cute pictures.
Last weekend we had everyone over for my mom's birthday and apparently scooter cars are fun when you're 10 and 13 too!
Cassidy likes to sit in a big girl chair to eat now. Her highchair is for babies and stuffed animals only. She can reach into our drawers and gets bowls and silverware for the dolls to eat from!

Cassidy is great at sharing. Jake always wanted a Maraca!  and when she put it there she said "Here you go Jake". Very cute!

We all have animal hats!

She still loves to read books but its been awhile since we've had to read every single on in the house in one day. But now she likes to read the same one over and over. Or in her words "Again Again".

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Patriots are in the Superbowl

Since its the middle of the Superbowl and my team is winning by 5pts, I'll just upload some pictures from the weekend.
This is what her hair looks like after a ponytail

with pigtails

Lenny, Ant & Cass riding cars.

Our super cool hats

Go Patriots!!  Woohoo!!